Libraries, archives, and museums all find themselves at the intersection of materiality and the mystical. Perhaps this is why we’re so quiet when we enter them.” ~ Jenn Shapland,
Someday I dream we’ll visit these holy places together.
We’ll make a Holy Place of Our very own, someday.
A place without any fear.
A place where i will gather all the things I have written to You
Gather them close and read them aloud to You
So You can hear the love in my chest
Among the hitches in my speech
and the small gasps of affection
and I will dream of it until then.
I baked a cake today, from scratch. And the first time in a very long time …
I created an orange bundt cake. It came out a wee bit heavier than I would have liked, but other than that it was perfect.
It made me happy in a way that I cannot explain. I prepared, I planned, I executed, and I cleaned up after … And I made a new thing.
It’s a very odd feeling, what I’m feeling right now. Like something is about to move in a very big way. I will do my best to explain how I feel.
I’m going to wait and do that tomorrow. Tonight, I really need good rest.
I hope there is love where you are.
I’m broke, but no longer broken. I’m weaving the scars into tapestry. Art heals.
Nashville appeals to me in ways I didn’t expect; there is art and music everywhere. From new architecture to old country. The city has embraced the art that I brought to it and seems to genuinely like me. Granted I’ve only been here for six days, but after the initial fiasco with TSA in Los Angeles, it’s been a really incredible and Uplifting week.
Because you asked …
I stopped posting pictures with the hex fastener because I found out that the gift it was based on was an utter lie. I believed in it and I had faith in it for a very long time, (and I have deep regret) but I can no longer display it because I discovered its falsehood. Many people have asked, and that’s your answer. I was used, I was lied to, and I put it behind me.
It still nips at my heels, but I refuse to let it control me anymore.
I’ve decided it’s time to wake up. Admittedly I’ve been coasting for quite a while, but it’s time to seriously take the reins to walk my path as true as I possibly can. More proactive in my heart, my art, and in my life.
As a reminder, I do what I do for the beauty of it. For the satisfaction that it gives my heart. Not for contests, not for accolades, not for anyone else but myself and the giver of the gift. Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful that what I do pleases people. I hope that it inspires them to chase their own curiosity. That’s how things change for the good, right?
This journey has been enlightening and amazing. The VisionQuest I didn’t expect, nor plan. I’ve gotten a little closer to my own truth, and that makes my heart very happy.
I hope there’s love where you are